Trust and peace , crown and curse
Trusting Christ and Gods provision in times of dark can be hard...but it is through trusting in Christ that we also find peace and overtime as you trust you’ll see the light start to shine again.
As we get close to Easter I think about the contrast between Good Friday and Easter Sunday. Because of the curse of sin Jesus endured the ultimate suffering...suffering greater than any of us can truly understand and imagine... yet because of that suffering there is redemption and hope and eternal life... the crown came after the suffering, the suffering had to be endured because of the curse of sin. But after all the suffering the stone was rolled away and there was light.... the brightest of all lights..light eternal.
Because of Christ’s sacrifice suffering is not the end of the story for any of us. Even when we feel stuck in suffering..a greater future does await. We can have Hope because of Christ’s sacrifice. Therefore it’s through trusting in Christ’s plans for our future that we find peace. The peace that surpasses all understanding, the peace that only he can give.
Because of the curse there was suffering but after the suffering there was and is a crown . There is light and there is hope.
It’s hard to trust Christ and find peace when you are in a season of unknown...when you feel you can’t see what the future holds... when you’re constantly in pain, whether physical, emotional or both…but often, in time, things start to become more clear., the blooms start to appear again after a strong pruning.
Each day we are seeing more and more light in our life, light in the future. The future has felt unknown and scary at times through much of our suffering but as I trust in the peace and hope only Christ can give I see more and more light, I become grateful and thankful of the past…the current, and excited for the future..a future different than I may have written had I had the pen, a future I never would have imagined, but a future that is still good that is written by the most creative, caring, restoring , magical one of all...written by our author our creator.
If your future feels unknown and dark at times I encourage you to trust, to trust in Christ to find hope and peace through trusting..and to remember the crown came after the curse....and though there was suffering..the suffering didn’t last forever..there was an end to it. Good things are ahead for those who wait and trust in the Lord.
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Thanks for reading these words and hearing the messages on my heart. I’m no theologian but I write what I feel and what I know from what I’m personally experiencing, from what I learn through the living word. To be honest I’m not sure who or how many people still read this.. this blog started as a way to keep family and friends praying with us updated on our precious Aurora, and then it morphed into a mechanism of healing and processing for me.... healing through writing. As life has continued things have been busy and I’ve lost my rhythm for how often I can come here to scribe. But from time to time I come back as it heals and I hope it also encourages others in some way.
For any readers still curious :
Aurora was doing pretty well for a good stretch but the past week has been HARD. She got a cold that turned into RSV and we’ve been hospitalized twice now. She can’t seem to keep food down, and has an awful cough. She also is having some issues with her gtube.
It’s been hard and exhausting and we’re just ready for her to not be so sick and struggling. It’s scary to think this may be our new norm for anytime she gets a cold (from what I hear from other moms with kids like Rory) It’s hard on her, on us, and also on Jed he doesn’t understand why mommy or daddy are gone all day and night at the hospital with her. But we lean in to the suffering knowing it will not last forever. We remain hopeful and above all else (when in desperation) we pray and wait..and pray again!
A few specific prayers right now:
That Rory would recover from RSV ..that she would stop coughing and keep down food, staying hydrated and be able to be home and normal
That her gtube site stays healthy and clear of infection and that the granulation tissue build up would clear and heal
We have been approved to get a private duty nurse to help during the day while I work. Praying for this person God brings to us. For opportunity for us to be light to them and them be light to us..for a good fit for our family.
We are waiting to hear back from Katie Beckett if we qualify which would give Rory state funded secondary insurance coverage and be a big cost savings covering all that our primary insurance does not. Our case is in front of the medical board and we are waiting to hear back in a few weeks hopefully! (They say most people get denied the first few times they apply but we’ll see)
For continued good signs of no seizures! very grateful for this!
For continued growth and development and beating the odds stacked against her
For more smiles and joy and peace and happy memories being made at home with her brother and family
